We all know that time flies and things change, but many times, we don’t realize what we are missing until it’s too late. Am I making any sense here?
OK, what I am going to write is not that bad, but I have started to feel that I am going to “lose” my little girl very soon. Nina is growing up fast. She is capable of doing many things by herself now. Things that she probably never thought of when she was a baby or as a 1 year old girl. She has lost a lot of her toddler’s way of saying something or pronouncing words. There are still some words that she can’t pronounced correctly yet, such as the following Indonesian words:
- hudah instead of sudah
- yuga instead of juga
- and some more. I will update the list when I remember them
She is also still confused sometimes between “ask” (as in asking question) and “tell” (as in telling someone something). But, I am sure all these will change soon.
I went to her bedroom just now and saw her reading her book and we had this short conversation.
Daddy: “Nina, do you want Daddy to read for you?.”
Nina: “No, Daddy. I can read by myself now.”
I am happy that she is now able to read by herself. She is still making some mistakes when reading, but at least she wants to and can try reading by herself. The other day, her mommy told me that Nina read some children story books by herself. You know those children books with lots of pictures and some short sentences.
I have read for her many times before (not as frequent as her mommy did though), so when I saw reading by herself, I thought of asking if she wanted me to read for her.
Daddy: “But Daddy wants to read for you, Nina.”
Nina: “It’s okay, Daddy. I can ready by myself.”
Again, I am happy that she can now read. But, deep inside me, I have this fear of “loosing” her very soon. She may not want to play those “silly” things we used to play together anymore, even if I want to play with her. By the way, they are definitely not silly for her age. Remember what Walt Streightiff said, “There are no seven wonders of the world in the eyes of a child. There are seven million”. Things that we think are silly as an adult, are not that silly for them. They are fun and interesting things to play for them. The children probably don’t understand why we adults need to spend lots of time in front of our computer, trying to tell the world our status of the hour: “I never really learned the difference between what is right or wrong. That’s why I automatically assume that whatever I say MUST be right.”
That was never on my facebook status by the way .. 
… I just picked it up from internet.
So, I know that I can’t keep her that small forever. I know that I can’t stop her educational growth, otherwise we won’t send her to school. But I know that I have to spend more time enjoying this very moment with her now. Tomorrow is not good enough.
We are happy she is growing up well and healthily.
And oh by the way, she may not understand all the words yet, but she can now say the prayers of “Our Father” or “The Lord’s Prayer” and “Hail Mary” everyday completely without looking at her small prayer book. We are so proud of you, Nina.
Love you pumpkin!
